It’s honestly strange how life has a way of just rolling along and you look up every now and again to find it’s all so bizarre than what you expected.
Perhaps this is just the lament of a guy in his mid forties who went the corporate route.
And I had the kids early, was the coach and all that stuff. But in doing all of that, I sort of lost sight of who I am as a person. Believe it or not, recreational marijuana is helping me get feel myself a bit better. And maybe that sounds all stupid however it’s honestly true. I suppose I took on roles that I ended up internalizing and then adopting behavior that just isn’t me. I realized this when a friend of mine came through town. The people I was with and I go back even before highschool. One day when the people I was with and I were out to get coffee, he commanded that the people I was with and I stop at the cannabis cafe he had seen online. I honestly didn’t feel anything about it however it was mere miles from my front door. The people I was with and I got our tea and my friend bought marijuana edibles for the both of us. Since I was driving, I told him I’d wait til later. Throughout the day, I sort of got gleeful about the edibles. The kids were gone and I ate a single. That night was sort of an epiphany for me. There was a perspective rapidly that I hadn’t had in decades. I was filled with hope, positivity and a feeling of being authentic. Since then, I have visited the cannabis dispensary again and I’m beginning to see the person I honestly am.