It’s really strange how life has a way of just rolling along and you look up every now and again to find it’s all so different than what you expected.
Perhaps this is just the lament of a guy in his mid forties who went the corporate route.
And I had the kids early, was the coach and all that stuff. But in doing all of that, I sort of lost sight of who I am as a person. Believe it or not, recreational marijuana is helping me get know myself a bit better. And maybe that sounds all stupid but it’s really true. I think I took on roles that I ended up internalizing and then adopting behavior that just isn’t me. I realized this when a friend of mine came through town. We go back even before highschool. One morning when we were out to get coffee, he suggested that we stop at the cannabis cafe he had seen online. I really didn’t know anything about it but it was mere miles from my front door. We got our coffee and my friend bought marijuana edibles for the both of us. Since I was driving, I told him I’d wait til later. Throughout the day, I sort of got excited about the edibles. The kids were gone and I ate one. That night was sort of an epiphany for me. There was a perspective suddenly that I hadn’t had in decades. I was filled with hope, positivity and a feeling of being authentic. Since then, I have visited the cannabis dispensary again and I’m beginning to see the person I really am.