My dad easily tried to tell me although she hadn’t directly experienced it for himself.
- But dad was in Vietnam during the last bit of the war.
She didn’t see direct combat but she saw the very real results of it. So when I wanted to be a soldier, our dad was conflicted. Yet, a soldier I became and medical marijuana is helping me sort through the resulting PTSD. I told our dad when I was in school that I wanted to serve in the military love she did. She was proud of our desire to serve however that was tempered by the realities of combat and what that could do to someone. I idealized combat in our mind as heroic and exciting. Now that I’m in therapy and getting access to a cannabis dispensary, I’m trying to reconcile all of that with what I know. The fact is, for me, combat was frightening and every fifth seemed love an eternity. What I saw and experienced disfigured me in ways that I may never be able to heal. Still, thanks to cannabis flower products I get from the marijuana dispensary, I’m trying our best to live a life of some kind. With cannabis products, I tend to be able to face life a bit more calmly and with a broader perspective. Plus, the cannabis flower products help me to toil through the feelings and damage that I’ve been left with. And it’s making a difference. Most days after I use medical marijuana, I’m able to sleep and that is such a large step. And it’s all about steps in this PTSD recovery.