Lately, I have been overwhelmed with anxiety.
I think it is a combination of work and home stress.
My boss is demanding more work from everyone, but we are already having trouble reaching our goals by deadline. The kids are home from school because it is summer and they are constantly getting into trouble. Last Tuesday, I got a call from the corner deli by our apartment. My son Jason and his friends were hanging out behind the store smoking pot. Jason is 10 years old. I can’t be with them everyday, and I certainly cannot afford to hire a sitter for a 13 and ten year old. I have to count on them doing the right thing when I am not home. All of this stress is causing my anxiety to surface in odd ways. I bit all of my nails down to the cuticle and I am losing my hair. I had to go to the doctor because I had an infection in my thumb from biting my nails. My doctor offered to write me a prescription for medical mairjuana. He said it would help ease the stress that I am feeling everyday, but I think it makes me a hypocrite. I know medical marijuana is legal here, but I just gave Jason a speech about doing drugs last week. If I start using medical marijuana, I might send the wrong message to my children. They are already finding ways to get into trouble. I don’t want to give them an excuse to use medical or recreational cannabis.